random updatelife is...ok. still have no job or money, and i still dont know whether i want to go back to university.
im having one of my sessions of feelings of impending doom and paranoia....not helped by the fact that the isects seem to be dissapearing from around here. we havent even had any greenfly in the garden for about 3 years and we are organic here.
something isnt right, the birds are demolishing the bird food in our garden when this is usually a quiet time of year for them so they must be hungry.
if all the insects dissapear we really are screwed...the food chains for the wildlife will collapse and there wont be any pollenation from the insects so our food industry will pretty much collapse as well.
maybe im just being paranoid...but i wonder if some new pesticide is being used by the farmers which is killing them all off.
my laptop is failing, the screen has a faulty connection somewhere and goes white if i move the screen and the touchpad doesnt work. it keeps overheating too, i really need a new one.
beyond that, ive really got into customising my little ponies recently, its quite soothing.
Tired
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From what you've told me, if going to uni means you have to move away, I think you should totally do it - the educational incentive is nothing compared to the rest. Having a new environment has always helped me with the feelings of doom. But the insects disappearing is pretty scary. Global climate change? Pollution? Just the usual cycles? I wonder.
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If it's the latter I would definitely encourage you to go back and finish out. Sometimes, even though it's rare, you can run into people that you really connect well with that will stick it out with you through school and after and be good possibly be good resources for jobs and just general socializing when the school activities and classes are gone. If that kind of stuff does happen for you sometimes you'll then be a in a good position to help maybe someone else out and that could probably be gratifying as well. Like I said, it's rare but it happens sometimes.
If you're finished school I would still encourage you to go back, because the chances of connecting with people that could be helpful down the road actually increases since advanced degree programs generally are smaller and more focused. 9 times out of 10 it turns out to be the colleagues/friends/family that you have that help you get on the right path for your career once you figure out what you want to do.
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