happy holidays of whatever belief you follow!

i got an intuos 4 for christmas and i think im in love <3. it is hands down THE best tablet ive ever used, its so smooth and the pressure sensing is amazing and the pen is so easy to hold. this may kick start me drawing more on the computer again.

i hope everyone has a safe and happy christmas. i need to go make food for when my cousens turn up now XD. we are having a quiet family dinner, we dont even have any decorations up.

10 hours sleep in two days and my second can of relentless today with little food and im as high as a kite XD, i think im scaring people, im so hyper its unreal.

its been an interesting day, ive suddenly got a whole heap of new ideas coming into my head. i feel very much like im a new person now, theres so much potential and ideas that are buzzing round in my head and i just need to grab them and force them to make sense but i think ive reached a point with my work that i dont know where im going but i cant go back, not in the same way. i feel really inspired today

now i just need to go through my 92,000 + photos to see what i can find

this week has been fairly eventful. ive had 4 anxiety attacks because i was stressed out about having my reveiw and an essay due in on monday.
i actually had my reveiw today which has actually been much better then i thought and has given me a direction. i was trying to stay clear of painting as it seemed like the obvious choice but my tutors want me to go back to that. i have a LOT of work to do before christmas ;___;, but at least they want me to start painting again which is great, im really wanting to get going with it right away now.
i still have to finish my damn essay by monday as well.

ive also discovered i now hate pelicans passionately after seeing them eating baby seabirds alive on a nature documentary on tv and seeing the poor little buggers they were eating struggling in their throats as they swallowed them whole. i keep getting nightmares about it.

Whoever designed the library here did not think about people with vertigo, why does the art section have to be on floor 5, you can see down two floors when you are going up the stairs and it makes me want to hurl as i feel really sick with heights.

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
' He had to get away. The canoe sloped easily into the water, and he paddled frantically for the gap in the reef that led to the open sea.'
Nation - Terry Pratchett
2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What are you touching?
A wall

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
a pelican eating a baby bird alive. i was in the gym at the time and theres tvs on some of the treadmills, someone was watching a wildlife documentary that i wish i hadnt seen as its been haunting me all day.

4. Without looking, guess what time it is?
17:45

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
17:41

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
my heartbeat

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
when i came back from uni today

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
my new sketchbook

9. What are you wearing?
Jeans and a black top thats cut like a v at the front and is short sleeved.

11. When did you last laugh?
at Sarah's expression when i was squeezing a piece of cotton wool full of red food colouring and saying 'wow this looks like ive murdered someone'

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
a poster of a phoenix, a poster of two people stood on steps surrounded by water looking at the sunset and a weird poster of a castle that screws with your eyes with the perspective.


13. Seen anything weird lately?
My artwork

14. What do you think of this quiz?
eh

15. What is the last film you saw?
i think it was Spirited away but im not entirely certain. it also might have been the Truman Show


16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
id get liposuction to get rid of the areas i cant seem to shift then give my money to charities and causes i think are deserving. maybe buy some land and trees to give to the people who are running the project to replant the caledonian forest or buy some motorised wheelchairs for old people who cant afford them...stuff like that. id put some into savings so i could get by but what would i want all that money for. money doesnt make you happy. as long as i had enough to live on and a place of my own id be fine. id do up mum and dads house too.

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know:
im pretty certain i have a type of OCD called dermotillomania

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
reduce the human population considerably so we arent royally screwing the planet.

19. Do you like to dance?
no, i know im crap at it.

20. George Bush:
i think my dog Jed has a slightly higher IQ

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?:
Illeanna

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
im not entirely sure as most male names i know are either taken by my family or used as rp characters, theres a couple id name a boy after though.

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
depends on the circumstances, im happy in scotland though i admit ive never actually been abroad.


24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
You did allright kid, even though you made your own way here

i tag anyone else who fancies doing this

Okaay people i need some help with my research for university.

Im wanting to do a project based on dreams so id like you to tell me what you dream about, in as much detail as possible regarding dreams you can remember. You dont have to reply in here, you can note me if you feel more comfortable with it.
Im wanting to see if theres common elements in dreams that i can incorporate into a painting.
Nobody would write on the sheets i gave out at uni so i need help XD. it can be anything